The end of Dec we had a friend donate $1000 & a few people sent in last of the year donations and miraculously we had January covered. But, by mid Jan we had nothing for Feb. Shelby was in the Middle East and I was holding down the fort at home. It was Summer holidays here and all of the kids in Kommetjie were at my home. I was feeding everyone & loving it, but the cost is high! This is a ministry I believe God has given me & as we lost more money He brought more mouths to feed...so I feed! We typically have between 11- 14 for dinner and way more at lunch and grazing thru out the day.
In the midst of all of this fun our bread kept getting squished. We have a really tiny pantry & it was getting shoved in and ruined and I do NOT like to waste food. One day mid Jan I had been grocery shopping and as I was walking out walked by a home store and there sat a bread box. I felt like the Lord told me to go buy it. I was quick to say, but Lord if we don't make money & have to leave then it's one more thing I have to get rid of. I was IMMEDIATELY convicted. You see I know God has called us and He wants us here and He will keep us here. I was just whining. I left the shops and did not buy the bread box!
The drive home I was convicted that I should have gotten it. I even wondered why buying a bread box was such a big deal. It's a small thing, it shouldn't matter this much. By the time I was home I
knew that first thing in the morning I was going back and buying a bread box! The Lord told me to and even though it seemed small I needed to obey...duh!
Next morning I was off and bought the bread box. I was so thankful cause I knew The Lord was blessing me, He saw my frustration over squished bread & He loved me enough to let me get one. What I didn't know is that when I got home and looked at my sad bank account it wasn't so sad anymore. The exact amount we needed for school books was deposited, $600 toward Feb was there and we found out that someone was donating $1000. That means all of Feb was covered and I could buy school. The next day someone gave me money to buy a large fridge. Mine was a tiny miniature one & they knew how many people I was feeding.
Here's the lesson that I feel like God was teaching me. It's important to mind in the little things, even for big Mommies :) he showed me that once I did obey He lavished everything that was an immediate need on us. This is not a lesson on name it claim it! Because we live a lifestyle of complete dependence it was a lesson on obedience for me and a lesson to not worry. He's called me to obey and He will do the rest
This month we are in Feb and have nothing for March. That familiar panic tries to raise its head and I push it down with the verses The Lord sets before me...don't worry about what you will eat or drink for He knows your need even before you do. He whispers trust me, he shows me in Exodus how He stirred the hearts of the ones He called to give, with the Israelite. I wonder who it is He's stirring right now and stop to pray for them. I'm thankful! I'm dependent! I have a great bread box that daily reminds me God ALWAYS shows up, always provides and just asks me to obey in the small things.
Oh how He loves you and me!
Andrea
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